Shinryou

I guess I upset one of my family members because I discouraged them from coming over to Live Journal.
I honestily don't know why they would want to be here, they don't really blog and they argure with anyone they talk too.
I told them my journal is a drama free zone and I wouldn't friend them back and would probably remove them from from my friends list if they friended me. I guess I insulted them, and I guess I should feel bad... but I don't.
This person can be so negative and writes me so much I literly had to open a seperate yahoo email account just for mail from them cause they flood my inbox. I don't really mind writing their in her own email account I just don't want them over here too. Its one of the reasons this account is called shinryou and none of my other places on the net aren't.
If that makes me a horrible person, so be it. I need one place I can feel free to express myself with out worring about negative imput from family members who just don't get it!

Holiday Greetings to all who celebrate...

My brother is letting me use is laptop while he tries to fix mine.
The only problem now is the internet has decide I don't exist and won't let me log into any of my sites...

F this, I am going to Disneyland.

Tired of coughing.
Tired of not sleeping because of coughing.
Tired of being cranky because I can't sleep and I am coughing.
Tired of swollowing cough medicene that doesn't work.
Tired of the taste of cough drops that do work but you can't take when your trying to sleep cause you choke on them.
Tired of the doctor telling me... "Gee you sure are sick alot." (No... really!)
Tired of people getting annoyed with me cause I am cranky and coughing.
Really, really, really, really tired of coughing!!!

And now the Santa Anas are blowing, (Making me cough more) and its HOT!
WTF????
Its December, give me a break already...

I have coughed so much my cats and dog don't even move anymore when they are sitting on me and I cough. They use to move or run away,now they just stay put and don't even look up.
This is just sad...
I saw the doctor again yesterday, (Hence the dumb doctor comment) and she gave me a different round of medacation and ear drops as it sounds like celophine is creaking in my ears and it HURTS! She also gave me two flu shots, the regular and the piggy flu cause she said she just didn't want to take any more chances with my health being so cronic. And she wants me to come back on Monday for a TB test.
Oh Joy!

Tonight family and friends and I are going down to watch the boat parade in Newport, which I will probably cough through.
Wish me luck!!!

My brother is working with my computer. My computer is NOT working with my brother. Hes trying to download my files onto the exter hard drive, so I can access them to use his laptop. My computer doesn't want to do this and keeps freezeing up. Fustrating!! All my writing and art files and pictures are in there, yes I have back ups, but it got sick before I could back up the latest stuff. SOB!!! I wants my laptop back and working... If I asked Santa nicely, do you think I might get some Christmas magic????

Its that time of year and my laptop alas now won't take a charge, I am fustrated beyound words. Am useing my brothers at the moment, which means I am stuck in his room and very not comfortable.

So it Christmas Card time, Anyone who wants a Christmas Card from me, please email me and let me have your address at

whitebirdsdragons@yahoo.com


Yeah Kat I know its not the Jinxiebell address, but I can't get into that one while my laptop is down.

Sigh...

Computer got a worm, Mcafee caught it, removed it and than cashed my system. My daughter spent all day reloading and now my Mcafee says I don't exist.

Why does the universe hate me?????

I am really, really tired of coughing my lungs out.

I would like to stop now...

This is so me its down right scarey!!!

So I thought I was feeling better this morning, that was before my breakfast decided to violently return as soon as I tried to swallow it. Several hours later the toast seems to be staying in place inside me as apposed to returning to the outside of me, so I thought I would post a few pictures of my garden when I returned from Loscon.

Apparently the flowers don't seem to notice its December.


( Winter Flowers )

Friday at Loscon was nice despite the fact I was so tired I could hardly stand up.
I actually got to sleep Friday night so I felt wonderful on Saturday and had a great day and met wonderful people.
Sunday I worke with what I thought was an IBS attack which rapily spiraled into a BAD fibromyalgia attack which forced me to go home eariler than I had planned too.
Today it turns out I have the stomache flu, no fever, just horrible stomache cramps and I feel like hell ran over.

So further reports on the con will have to wait till I don't feel so much like road kill.

Going back to bed now...

I am Sooooo glad this is the last day of November, December HAS to be better, right... right... RIGHT!!!!

I have had three Thanksgiving dinners this week, and I am off to Loscon and the Art Show for the weekend...

It was a really, really busy week and half the time I wasn't even home, but I got it all done.

Anyone going to Loscon on my Flist, if you see me, be sure to say hi. I'll be the one walking aroung half asleep. LOL!


This is how my hair looks now that its no longer purperish, yes I over did it on the blond streaks, but I don't care, its better than it was...

Sigh..

Its a week till Loscon. I am sooooo NOT READY!!!

I knew it was going to be crunch because of all the family deaths and other problems that kept cropping up all month. What I wasn't counting on was that the dragons that were messed up by UPS would turn out to be so difficut to fix, nor did I count on the fact that the ones I thought weren't damaged were on closer inspection, also broken, broken in a way that actually will require me to rebuild them.

Double Sigh!!

So I have done an compleat search and turn over of my work room and found some dragons that were all but finshed, (they just need wings and painted) and am now rushing around trying to get these done as its easier to finsh what wasn't finshed yet than to repair what was broken at this point...

Good thing I wasn't sleeping anyway, cause it doesn't look like there will be much of a chance for the rest of the week.

I really, really hate this November...

My son just left to go to boot camp.

I don't think I know how I feel about this...

I still haven't slept yet.

I even ate turkey to see if it would put me to sleep.

It didn't.

I would cry, but I am too tired for tears.

Whispful sigh!!!

I will NOT blow up the world today!

I will NOT blow up the world today!

Just because people are stupid, annoying and rude!!!
Is no excuse to blow up the world today...

Just because people use you, ignore you and piss on you,
is no excuse to blow up the world today...

Just because no one has manners or the brains of a dead nat,
is no excuse to blow up the world today...

Just because November SUCKS big time
is no excuse to blow up the world today...

Just because you haven't slept in five days...
well... that might be a good reason...
but we will still refrane from blowing up the world today...

I think I really hate this November,
and I am really am just too tired to blow up the world today...

*This rant has been kindly brought to you by the crazy sleep deprived part of my warped brain.
Thank you for your time, you may return to your normal life now.*

I haven't slept for three days. Non stop running and dealing with stuff, I'm tired, I go to bed, and my stupid brain won't shut up and let me sleep. Sooo annoying!

Turns out my youngest son is going into the Air Force Monday instead of later in the week like we thought. So I had to rush around to day getting the stuff he needs, because there just isn't any time. Tomorrow, Friday is the fureral for my best friends Mother, Saturday is our really early Thanksgiving so my son can have it before he leaves. Than Sunday his girfeiend moves back in with her parents while hes gone, Monday he goes in. Sigh!

I got my dog washed, and now I must go do my hair so it will be done for the morrow. Gods, I hope I sleep tonight. I don't know how much more I can take before collapesing.

Wish me luck...

Last week my friend who just lost her Mother asked me to dye her hair for her so it would look good for the funeral. I went over and did so and it came out a lovly shade of red. So I came home to do mine, an lighter brighter shade of red, but the same brand....It came out not only too dark, but Burgundy.

I....HATE...BURGUNDY!!!!

Much muttering and curseing and than I figured I just wait a week and redye. Not the first time I have had to do a redye. Usually because I have too much gold in my hair my usual problem is it comeing out too light. So I redyed it today strawberry blonde. It came out dark red with burgundy tips...WTF!

I....AM....NOT....HAPPY!!!

I will NOT live with this dark dismal color, so I will go down and get blond and streak it. (Done that before too) If that comes out Burgundy too, I may blow something up.

She wanders off fists cliched, muttering to herself...

I think I hate November...